Never, couldn't stay with me the whole day long.


Sure this distance is difficult, and sure we don't know where we're going, what country I'll end up being in- if you'll move there to be with me. All I know is I want you there next to me...isn't that enough?

I do have some crazy aspirations, things that I'm not so set on, sure about. But it feels right to be with you, and I wouldn't let all those doubts about my future get in the way of us.
Maybe you think it's a bit crazy that I'm so sure after years of being so uncertain...I've met so many people, as friends, as boyfriends- and I know that no one has stayed by me even when I'm the most stubborn, difficult, loved me even when I'm the cruelest, and believed the best in me, wanted the best for me when I was so undeserving of such adoration. You are so patient, kind, sweet...brilliant. I could never get enough of you. I think after 4 years of knowing you, (7 months of it secretly loving you), 3 years of screaming our love over oceans and coasts- it's safe to say that you're the closest to perfection that anyone can ever get for me.

Chicago, Pennsylvania, New York, Montreal, Toronto.
We'll find somewhere, if we want this bad enough.

You're worried right now, and that worries me because I'm always the worry wart and you're the one to hold me and tell me everything's going to be okay.

I don't want to tell you this because I'm scared to escalate things, I just want to lie here and be with you, even if it's only in my dreams for now.
I trust that there'll be a day where we can wake up to each other...please, you just have to believe it too. please believe it.